I was recently reminded of a time in my life when I was seeking much needed direction concerning family and personal needs. At the time we were experiencing a very unique (for our family) trial. My husband is diabetic and has chronic kidney disease.  He also had a stroke at the time and during that time we were in the process of moving from our home of 13 years. 

My responsibilities doubled as I took full control of the moving process, his diet, driving him to his appointments, and preparing appropriate meals for his condition. He lost sight in his right eye and could no longer drive or travel.  The doctors said he had to be with me 110% of the time because of issues with his sugar level dropping low.

Around the time of our move and as I was learning to keep up with all the responsibility as well as help him adjust during this difficult time, I began to seek God on how to do it all and also have the right attitude. I asked him “What should I do”?   I wondered how could I get through this and be a help to my husband?  One day after praying he spoke these words to me.

You’re supposed to trust me.  You’re supposed to trust me to pave the way, set up the day, lead and guide you every day.  You’re supposed to trust me Keena, when you see no beginning and when you see no end.  You’re supposed to trust me when each day feels like the day before and the day before, and the day before.  You’re supposed to trust me when all seems dark and you see no lights.  You’re supposed to trust me when you feel overwhelmed and you have no idea which way to go, what path to take or which turn is yours.  You’re supposed to trust me because, I am God.  I am your father and as your father, I will do what is best.  I will navigate the turns, make the paths for you to walk on, light up the darkness so you have light along the way. I will calm your fears, lead and guide you each day.  I will show you your beginning and carry you to the end.  I will give purpose to your life, provide what you need, show you the way and walk with you until you reach the point in your life where trusting me is like breathing, and then, only then will I watch you walk upright, but you will never be alone, because I will never leave you.  That’s what good fathers do.

I am still seeking and trusting God. I hope you are too.

Happy Launching! 🙂